It's a shame that special events, celebrations, holidays etc., have to be surrounded by rich and highly fattening food (and alcohol). In trying to figure out why I associate "fun" with "food" I realized that it's because I've been conditioned to think this way, we all have. I think part of why I have trouble getting back on track after the holiday season is 1., I crave what I've been eating (sugary, carby and rich foods), and 2., the holiday season is just more fun in general than every day life and honestly, who wouldn't want the party to continue?? Maybe the party can't go on forever, but the food sure can...and it has been...and it needs to stop!
Apparently my life is extremely boring because I keep turning to the "fun food" to keep the party going (the party for ONE!). I have to figure out how to have "fun" on a daily basis, without my "fun food" AND to try and find a way to make the holiday season (which could last all year if I let it) more fulfilling, without the need to binge eat. I'm sure by now you've figured out that I'm having some trouble getting back on the "fat fight" wagon. :-)
Last night I decided that TODAY is the day that the party ends (have I already make this statement in another post?? Well, I'm not perfect so I'm saying it again!). I'm back on my NO sugar diet that I was doing well just up until Thanksgiving and then was kind of sort of doing up until the week before Christmas. While on that diet I was 1. able to remain focused on my goal of wanting to lose weight, 2. I was actually losing weight and 3. After about a week on it, I wasn't craving sugar as much anymore and I was feeling A LOT better both physically and mentally. So far so good....it's 1pm and I'm doing well. There are no excuses right now and there is fear of failure that I have no choice but to overcome. I'm tired of not putting my full dedication into something because of the fear of failure. I'll never know if I can lose this weight unless I try, and try hard.
Keep fighting everyone...we CAN do this!
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