I've been floundering. I don't know if it's the fact that I've had the upcoming (but now past) birthdays looming over my head or what, but I haven't been putting in 100% effort, and I know that. I think there's also still some denial about what I weigh and how much I have to lose. I know that I want to lose the weight and I also know that part of me is terrified to try. Anyway, I've GOT to try, and try harder, because I DO NOT want to stay this way. Against my better judgment, I weighed myself this morning and I'm up three pounds. Given what I ate this weekend, that's about right, but it still bums me out. There was a day when I could eat like that and not gain anything, but that passed by probably 15 years ago!!!
Now it's time to buckle down and DO what I've set out to do. Back when I was living at my parent's house I used to go on this awesome bike ride to the beach and back, it was 15 miles round trip. The ride was chock full of hills, not an easy ride. However, the two most difficult hills were the last two, when my legs would be burning and I didn't think I could take much more. Do you know what I would do? I would push it harder and I would always sing, Rob Base "Joy and Pain": "Joy and Pain, Like Sunshine and Rain, come on come on pump it up (okay, so that part may have been my add in)" and I would just keep repeating it over and over again, until those hills were done. I've GOT to tackle this massive hill that I'm up against....time to get portions under control, and start eliminating "bad" fats and "bad" sugars out of my diet!!!
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